>>>>>>>> It was a perfect day
>>>>>>> What I'd give if I could find a way to stay>>>>>> Lost in this moment now
>>>>> Ain't worried 'bout tomorrow>>>> When you're busy
>>> Living>> In a
> Perfect day::Lady Antebellum::
I don't really know where to begin. My time in Cali was that amazing. So needed, too. But it wasn't nearly enough time. Before I knew it, I was riding in the car with Jaime, headed back to the airport. And I was heartbroken. She said it so many times while I was there -- it feels so natural, so normal, so right having me there. And it was the same for me. It felt so natural, so normal, so right being in California. Chris feels it too. He got off the plane at LAX, called me, and said, "We belong here."
I wish that I could say returning home to Edinburg, TX put my doubts and worries and sorrows to rest, but it didn't. Returning back to Edinburg was the most unsettling thing I have done in a long time. I don't feel like we belong here. This isn't home. Where did it go? Where did that sense of peace and acceptance I had for this place go? When will I get it back? Will I ever feel at home anywhere but at my sister's house, holding my nephew, sitting on the couch next to her?
Lord, you have some more work to do in me. I still have doubts and questions and it still hurts. I trust you. I believe you know what you're doing. I just wish I knew what it was.
I don't really know where to begin. My time in Cali was that amazing. So needed, too. But it wasn't nearly enough time. Before I knew it, I was riding in the car with Jaime, headed back to the airport. And I was heartbroken. She said it so many times while I was there -- it feels so natural, so normal, so right having me there. And it was the same for me. It felt so natural, so normal, so right being in California. Chris feels it too. He got off the plane at LAX, called me, and said, "We belong here."
I wish that I could say returning home to Edinburg, TX put my doubts and worries and sorrows to rest, but it didn't. Returning back to Edinburg was the most unsettling thing I have done in a long time. I don't feel like we belong here. This isn't home. Where did it go? Where did that sense of peace and acceptance I had for this place go? When will I get it back? Will I ever feel at home anywhere but at my sister's house, holding my nephew, sitting on the couch next to her?
Lord, you have some more work to do in me. I still have doubts and questions and it still hurts. I trust you. I believe you know what you're doing. I just wish I knew what it was.
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